Have you ever been crushed by something?

Yep! That's what it feels like with all this pressure to have little people these days.  It seems like everyone and their mom is popping out kids. And we are currently the only family in our ward under 30 without kids = we have no friends.

Are we missing out? Is there a memo we aren't getting?

Trust me, I can not wait to have my own little alive doll that I can dress up and swoon over. I dream of how cute our little ones will be.



But, I really don't want the responsibility right now.
Is that bad?
I want enjoy my twenties and my early years with my hubby.
Is that selfish?
I want to work and make my own money that I can spend on myself.
Is that greedy?
I want get a full nights sleep every night.
Is that awful?

I personally think their is way to much pressure placed on young LDS members. Get married young, have babies young, blah blah blah. I didn't want to get married till I was in my late twenties (thanks for screwing that up Will. Lol!), and I certainly don't want my own little posse till I'm older than that. I'm not ready to grow up, not ready to be a pregnant, and not ready to be called mom (Ekk! that sound of that kinda makes me cringe a bit. Maybe my kids can call me by my first name?).

I'm no baby hater. I love kids! and everything I enjoy involves kids, but want to my pre-mommy chapter a bit longer first.

I have been coaching freshman cheer for 4 years now. Crazy that my very first team I ever coached is graduating this year. Man do I feel old.



Coaching for so long has provided me to get to know so many girls and become a part of their lives. And it weighs heavy on my heart how much these girls have to deal with in these days. High school was not even half as bad as what these girls have to deal with. Everything from mental and physical illnesses, to divorce, and bullying. Many times I hear of these things or a cheerleader comes to me for help and I use to get stuck. I have never been good at emotional or deep conversions, much less giving meaningful and life changing advice to a 14 year old. But, as the years go on I have found that this has gotten easier. My heart has been softened more heart breaking stories I hear from these girls.

It's not fair that they are having to deal with such grown up problems during the best years of their lives. I pray for these girls, everyone. I pray that I am making a difference in their lives, I pray that somehow cheer teaches them life long lessons, I pray that cheer provides them an escape, and I pray that they love themselves and become great leaders.

I am so grateful to have these girls in my life, they have changed me for the better.

My bestest friend is prego and I got the opportunity to throw her shower! It was so great to see people I haven't seen in for like ever and meet some new people. Also it was so nice to have a house to put people in. I had been working on her shower for a couple of weeks making the little decorations, but at the end it was a mad dash to get the house together. The night before we havd just hung the TV on the wall, so it wouldn't be sitting on the coffee table anymore. But, it all came together and it was so wonderful!